oh man it made me feel bad about gaining like 60lbs, but they told me i was underweight and needed to gain it anyway -.-
i didnt get overweight or anything but im used to being small so it kind of bothered me..
the zyprexa is horrible for that.. i've lost alot of weight again though so i guess its ok..

the only problem i had with seroquel was that in the beggining it really knocked me out and it caused me to panic a little because i would take it and like 15-20 mins later start getting so sedated that i couldnt do anything but pass out and i would get really anxious and start having a panic attack before passing out because it scares me to be knocked out like that... and the 400mg pills are soo big i could barely swallow them
i probably would of kept taking it if it wasnt for that... but its really sedating in the begining, i think probably took me a year to get used to the sedation but after that i could stay up for 24/48 hours or whatever like usual... i have alot of insomnia sometimes :/

i cant really say which meds did what because they had me on so many ya know...
i just really dont like zyprexa so becareful with that one... and depakote really dopes you up..

valium/klonopin are my favorite but you end up building tolerances with them and that sucks

alternatively, marijuana is my most favorite and desired type of medication...
but the doctors get mad at me about it ... my therapist said to keep smoking because it helps but the doctors grilled me so much about it and wouldn't treat me fairly because of it and diagnosed me with substance abuse/dependency - i guess it wouldnt of been so bad if i wasnt drinking too..
the weed really relaxes me and helps put me in a comfortable safe place in my mind where i can just let things be... it doesnt cure things but it helps me cope..
the way i see it, if something works... why knock it? why pile on a bunch of drugs that have a bunch of crazy side effects and try to force someone to stop using something that works? when the meds wont work?! doctors can be so backwards sometimes..

or maybe im just backwards :/