i'm sorry. i don't mean to be dismissive of peoples efforts. don't mean to be :-( i guess some vulnerabilities this week... and encroaching deadlines at work gets me additional pressure... and really missing mr mans physical presence... and my t taking some time off... and interacting with this other person again (bringing up memories of trauma)... hard... so hard...

but i do appreciate peoples efforts to help.
i do.

need to stop binge eating...
eat to help deaden me
deaden me inside
dead
dead
dead
dead
numb

so sad sometimes :-(