Guys, I can't do it.

I am lying in bed, crying, and it's not even 9am. I already messaged a message I said I wouldn't send because overwhelming anxiety got the best of me. I like this guy, but I need to not be anxious all the time or create drama all the time. I'm crying because I'm sad, because I know reality is not what I'm seeing. I just don't think I can do it.