Just like the title says. I've struggled for almost two decades with the issues I have .... collected... over the years and mental health treatment, sadly, hasn't ever been on the top of my priorities list. I've never made a lot of money and when it comes down to an overpriced shrink who's going to charge me 100$+ a session for help that never really works and give me a rx for pills that are 100-400$, depending on what insurance wants to cover that year, I go with car payments and grocery money every time.

The issue with this is that it gets to the point where I can barely think straight let alone sleep, work, or exist without my brain running amuck and driving me insane. I despise the thought of having to pay for this ******** because it only helps out a fraction of what's wrong and really, all it does, is leech me of money I need for other things. For example, beyond the essientals like rent, food, gas, insurance, I've spent most of my saved money on medical bills and a computer. In 10 years of saving money, an ER visit and a computer (which is needed for work) is all I've managed to show for anything. So when the question of sanity and managing it comes into play it's hard to cough enough for even a fraction of the help I need.

The only thing I've heard of for any actual help in this matter is that through the proper doctors I can get mental health help and medication through a primary care doc however finding one that accepts my mandatory obamacare crap insurance is damn near impossible to the point of having to travel a good ways (100 miles or so) before I can find one that will accept anything for so much as a shot at help. This is some serious ******** just to feel like my own brain isn't trying to kill me. Not I've got to pretend the real world isn't out to get me as well.