Hi PandaCutie,

OK let's bring the focus back to you, instead of how you may be being perceived for now
I'm wondering if it might help examining where those feelings might be coming from and trying to resolve that a little?? Afterall you do sound as if those feelings are hurting you too, to begin with
So.........I don't know........could you be feeling a little insecure, are you feeling vulnerable, is this a defense against feeling vulnerable, are you feeling isolated, do you feel like some of your needs aren't being met, is this a carry over from the way you've felt others have treated you, is there "stuff" in your life that you're finding difficult to cope with and it's coming out in your interactions..........stuff like that...........
There could be ways you could address/resolve some of those issues if you can pinpoint them, or maybe you could talk about them with your boyfriend and you could work through them together??
And maybe examining some of the thoughts prior to your lashing out could help (even with that) too e.g. with him not calling.........could you have been thinking that "He doesn't care", whereas at the time you could maybe counter that with the thought that "I know he cares, but he may be really busy or so tired/tied up he's forgotten" or "OK, he's not good at remembering to call, but I know he still cares, perhaps next time I need to send him a reminder when I'm free"............
And then when you do get time to talk, maybe have an open discussion with him, without assumptions??
That doesn't mean you shouldn't say how you felt, or tell him your needs though..........just kind of make it a two-way discussion, with compromises if needed.........if that makes sense???

And..........rarely talking to people in school...........I honestly think it might help to have other people "in your life" who you can talk to/share with/depend on/rely on more......with him just a little less the main focus of your attention.......even if just one or two more for now??
Do you think it might be possible to "break through" some of the things that may be holding you back there?? Just a little??



Alison