I'm already starting to make arrangements to leave this place. It was a difficult decision to make, one I agonized and stressed about for quite some time, but I finally asked my parents for financial assistance. I just feel like a failure. I'm an adult and I can't make ends meet if I get out of this job. I'm waiting to see what IA decides to see if I have to fight to clear my name before leaving. I got two different responses from people here with regard to what happens to the investigation if I were to resign. They both say the investigation just stops, because it's administrative and not criminal. However one says it just disappears and the other says it stays in my personnel file, which future employers can request access to. I don't want an unfinished investigation in my file and I definitely don't want any mention of my mental health in there. This is why I'm trying to stick it out. But they're taking so damn long, I'm going crazy..