Sitting here alone,
always feel alone these days,
the hurt keeps hurting,
but nothing seems to work,

I felt better once
seems it was so long ago
the days run into weeks,
the weeks into months,

I want the pain to stop,
doesn't matter how,
just let me lie down and,
feel it slip away,

I had a connection,
it is now gone,
I could talk about things,
that have never been out before,
now I have this deep pain,
but you say the worse is over,
if it is, someone forgot to tell me that
because now it feels like,
nothing i have ever felt before,

I have been abandoned so many times
one more should not matter,
yet, this feels different
like the one who believed and had
faith in me has turned and walked away.

But I am supposed to feel better,
strong where I am broken,
how come nobody told me
it would feel this bad
even when the secret was out,

Maybe they forgot,
the little girl inside is still there
she is afraid to come out
for she will feel again

The past is the past,
but it feels like the present
I don't know how to make it stop
without hurting myself to know
I am still alive, even know I
feel so dead inside!