I guess I was in a bad place when I wrote the above post.I am in a better place today.I am a bit annoyed with myself cos I let my sister who I cut out of my life going on a year and a half now,I let her bring me some insulin that I left in my mum's fridge.I didn't see her or open the door she just brought it and posted it through my letterbox.I am mad at myself for allowing her to do that favor for me,to save myself a trip and taxi fare.i forgot to take the insulin when I left mum's.It was bad of me to take the easy way and let narc sis bring it.She will be feeling good for making me break the boundary.She is not supposed to see me or talk to me but she forgot I was at my mum's one day when she was told I would be and she turned up and let herself in with the key,she left straight away,but that same day I forgot the insulin and that night she would be going to the station anyway which is five mins from my house so she offered to bring the insulin.Mum phoned to ask if it was ok and I said yes it was ok.I should have said no,because this person who is my biological sister abused me for 26 years and tried to bring about my death twice.What is it saying to her if I let her do me favors like bring my insulin when I forget it.I feel so bad for allowing that.Plus I sense she is doing what she always does,sensing that I am strong and able and seeing what she can make me do for her in the end,she always used to dump me when I was ill and jump on my band wagon when I was strong again.I have told my mum to tell the narc sister not to let herself in mums house when I am there with her key again,not to forget when it is a day I am visiting.I also told her never again will I allow sister to do me a favor like bring insulin again!I have been beatingmyself up for this mistake all day,it happened yesterday!But now I will forgive myself and move on.

It is Orthodox Easter this weekend.Tomorrow I am going for a coffee and I am going to buy flowers to take to my dad's grave.