LesFleursDuMal,

If your therapist is worth his salt, he won't be disgusted with you. He'll be disgusted with your mother for sure (another thing that a nonabusive mother would have done is talk to the kid about the issue, e.g. "You can only touch your private parts in private." Or something along those lines), but not with you. I mean, she basically molested you under the guise of caretaking (which is a pretty common tactic for female perpetrators). It's not your fault. You were four or five years old.

In addition, there's actually a support group out there for people who've gone through the same experience: Making Daughters Safe Again (MDSA). The only drawback is that you'll have to pay a fee for it, but I heard it's pretty helpful for people who've gone through a similar experience. And the main page has some pretty good information as well.

And well...hugs if you want them.