I ended up having a little anxiety attack this morning (not quite panic, but I was a little mess) and I sent a message. And then I sent a subsequent one saying I was aware it was a dumb message to send at 830am and then I was honest: I said I was anxious, I was feeling stressed out from some work stuff, and I was having a difficult time putting my anxieties to bed over the past week and unfortunately they got the best of me. I said I don't want to push, and that isn't my intent, but for my own self worth, I also can't keep feeling anxious.

His reply was simply, "It's going to be okay. Really, truly."

I was okay with that this morning. And I feel like that should be enough. But it didn't answer any of the questions I had. I'm not anxious right now. But I feel like I will be again. At the same time, even if he answered the questions...more would probably pop up. He probably knows that. "It's going to be okay," is a cover-all.

I'm trying. Really, I am. I don't have a lot of people to hang out with. And right now, I'm so tired after work that I don't want to do anything. Not even any hobbies of any kind. (Seriously, I'm not depressed, I'm just exhausted.)