You weren't too late

I ended up having a painful but good session. I was already mourning losing her "as though we have to say goodbye now rather than in 1 year's time" as I tried to calmly bring up termination.

Migrating is going to be so hard, I told T. Even if I'm leaving my abusive and neglectful parents behind, I feel so unworthy of a chance at building a life worth living. I've seen myself as my younger brother's "mother" for so many years too...

So many tangled and messy things that'll no doubt be fodder for therapy in future sessions!

And couch, omg my T (who does ACT, DBT and schema therapy) told me she didn't have a treatment plan when I asked if she had one!!