Most of my friends all agree, as do I, 19 is one age we would not like to ever repeat.

Why's that? 19 is a major development year unofficially speaking.

My flags are up that he's allllllll you can think about. He's all consuming. You're trying hard to enjoy your priviledged experience of travelling out of country and he's all you can think about and you feel depressed.

Your mom suggested wait. A good man would wait. He'd encourage you to live your life and not to worry he'll be there later....