I feel good about myself today.I went to dad's grave and took him some white Roses and deep purple Chrysamthemums,they were lovely.I filled a plastic container with water and flower food and left them at dad's grave.I had a long chat with him and cried,said God bless and that I hope he is resting in peace.It felt good to be there at his grave,it is set in a church graveyard and it is a serene and peaceful place.I felt loving and full of self love too though I got wet in the rain waiting for a taxi home.It was good for my self esteem to allow the part of me that misses my dad to try and show him I still love him,even though he is no longer here on earth with us!