DP, how are you doing on this topic now, after the replies?? (((hugs)))

Some of the research shows that with everyone who was conflicted and sought therapy, they found a trauma within the same-sex relationship, even with those who insisted (prior to therapy) that they didn't recall a trauma. A major upset with the relationship had occurred, this was a common denominator in each patient's case. Since you're so young, and questioning now, it would be good for you to go to therapy to discuss how you feel when those thoughts come up, what just happened and with whom. Therapy won't force you one way or another, but do what all therapy does: help you to find the reasons for your actions, thoughts and feelings, and offer you a way to change whatever you wish to change.