Please, stop telling me to rest and sleep and do shallow things as way to relax (honestly, it does not really work. Long term. And not sure I can distract through this crisis).

I can't. Too many things to do. Plus too many bad dreams.

Thanks deities for things like conclears and blushes that help me create the look "I sleep in the night, really".

Thanks deities people like this being my personality. Sure, I can like manic pixie version of Che Guevara (except I never killed anybody and instead of being communist I trot around with NATO flag... because it's SO PRETTY and "YO, WE ARE THE COOL GANG!") or too dark and cynical for a girl. (but hey, I have all the good excuses).

I just hope this all is worth it. It has to be.