I know, he called me today, happened to be the worse day I have had in awhile, and he decided to call.....part of me was glad to hear his voice, the other part wanted to scream at him. I know that alot of this is my issues of rejection and abandonment, I get the slightest hint that this is it, and my emotions kick in and then I am out of control. Our sessions just aren't the same, he is not there with me, there hasn't been connection, not like there was before. So with that and what he has been saying I took it and ran with it, and have been fighting with myself for pushing even my T away.

I know he is waiting for me to make an appt, he asked me today if I was going to, and if I would promise to let him know.........I just have to do it.........