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Originally Posted by Icare dixit
smallwonderer, you're completely right: I should probably believe that, about mania, about getting things done. But I don't, ever. I do get things done, but when I continued with more or less manic, I can only touch it again being (at least as) manic.
I have too strong beliefs generally, chronically. It doesn't have to make sense. It's psychotic, but it is. That's why I compared it to catatonia.
Even if it were just severe anxiety, but definitely if it were just a more normal belief, I could have some confidence to overcome it. I keep hope, but as it is, nothing has really been there to justify that. Just my more religious beliefs.
Thanks for your story and advice.  |
There was a 'one weird thing about me' thread awhile back I don't think I participated in. My weird thing is I work 80-90 hrs/week (12hr daysx7 plus or minus a little extra). It's drudgery, but I find it manageable. Of course, in that time, I still lurk on here, do other things too so debatable how much work is getting done I suppose. I sleep on average 7-8 hrs/night so I am not doing much besides work. If I were manic, I'd think it was like walking on a cloud probably would push that to 100-110+ hrs and think I was accomplishing a lot while sleeping 2-3hrs a night. When I'm experiencing a depressive phase, I work 40-60 hrs/week and it feels absolutely miserable and neverending. If I were comparing the 40-60 misery to the 100+ walking on a cloud, I'd miss the 100+ walking on a cloud. Numbers in another profession besides mine may vary... just saying the middle isn't so bad if you can find it for yourself.