I recently found out that a colleague/"pal" at work lost her brother.



He "had it all". A loving family. A paid-off home, cars, boats, and property. He had recently retired from work & was anxious to walk my pal down the aisle to get married.

My pal is understandably upset. She is stooped as to why in the world he would have done such a thing. That's when I became quiet.



I know that it's not pretty. So, I never tell anyone about these repetitive thoughts and feelings of mine. They're nothing to be proud of, I know that much. But, I wish so badly that I could go.

What do you think? Is this a personality trait? Is it something to be concerned about or is it relatively common?