I've had a few days of this squirmy feeling that's made me decide I need to come off my meds and change my hairstyle. For me those are signs of impending mania, but I don't feel especially manic, just squirrelly and a little irritable. I also know that going off my meds cold turkey would almost certainly be disastrous---it took years and a lot of medication adjustments to get stable---but part of me wants desperately to pretend I don't even have bipolar. WTF is wrong with me? Isn't stability enough? Sheesh!