Hi Guys!
Thanks for taking the time to read this post.
I've suffered from depression and panic attacks for the best part of 7 years now. The last 4 have been managable, which is great. I still don't throw myself into certain situations anymore, but I'm sure you can all appreciate how it changes you. Anyway, even tho I've suffered from the above, I've still always managed to main a healthy and fun loving lifestyle. I have a good life (bar my mind) and am lucky to have this. My problem (or maybe it isn't) is that I am coming up to my 30th b'day soon, and whether or not it's related, these last 6 months I've really been absorbed with a death. Not in a suicide way, but as in a fear of it. I'm not typically a hypocondriac, but now if I have a pain of niggle I analyse it till I'm borderline panic attacking. I also spend a lot of time scared about when my time will be up....could it be tomorrow...etc...And how I will go.....Not baring to be without my wife etc....! Now I know this is stupid and its all a mind thing, but it really is starting to get to me. Am I normal? Do people usually think this way alot? Somehow I doubt it!!! Thanks for listening again.