I'm happy with lamictal. I'm not happy with gabapentin. It's not working very well. Anxiety still bad, but it's all I've got for my anxiety right now!

There are numerous things about it that freak me out, like I haven't even been on it a year and the dose has been increased four (!) times because I keep developing a tolerance, when I try going off of it it feels very similar to the beginning of my clonazepam nightmare, and it's eroding away at my cognition. I couldn't remember how to spell dissuade the other day.

I'm pissed. I'm fed up with doctors and meds because both have ****ed me up more than helped me. I have ****** withdrawal from everything, and if my life wasn't finally back on track I'd say **** it, wean off lamictal and gabapentin and deal with things on my own! My biggest problem is anxiety and apparently I have treatment resistant anxiety anyway.

I WILL NOT go on an AP, AD, benzo, or switch lamictal for a different mood stabilizer, so good luck to this new person I'm seeing on friday.

SO FED UP!!!!