Hi all

I have dx of BP1/psychosis features, I am in the depression cycle with suicidal ideations.

I feel like I am in a big black hole, i managed to crawl to the top just about to stick my head out. I slide right back down to the bottom. just wondering is it different for everyone, how long does the depressive cycle last. I've been having suicidal thoughts, visions, planning for 2 weeks now. I am getting very disturb, I have gone to the mental health services for support. I have just started medication recently and it's a long weekend here in Ireland. I have had telephone contact with the crisis nurse for long weekend.

I am just so bloody tired, I want to cry but can't. I had mania cycle for months and got myself into so much trouble.

Thanks

Annmaria