Hi there,

Over the years I've developed a friendship with a married man to the point that we have become best buddies, we watch sports, drink together and generally hand out when we can, we both have children, we have both supported each other through difficult times like depression, anxiety, sleep issues etc all of which seem unrelated.

I've never confided in him that at times I have dabbled in male to male contact however I enjoy male to female contact and I love my wife dearly. What started however in the last few years was that one night we watched porn together, we would have obvious erections which I occasionally 'flashed about', he never did but didn't hide it so to speak through underwear. It has however escalated, we now watch porn and we both show each other our erections, we play with ourselves however when it comes to actual ejaculation one goes to the bathroom, we do not do that together.

He has told me that I've relaxed him into being more open and that this is not something he has done with anyone, we talk about sleeping with women in our youth, we share lots of stories, we are open and ok with nakedness around each other.

I'm now finding that when I'm not with him that I miss him and I think about him, I don't know what to do. I don't think he is bi at all, I think he is very heterosexual actually but I think I've fallen in love and our friendship is at a different level.

Can anyone shed some advice on what I am to do?