Soidhonia, how strange that I had just called both my T and my pdoc to say that everything was almost fine. Now I called again to correct my previous statement. I'll see my T thursday. This time I have a good idea about what made me depressed, even if depression feels always so cosmic that relating it to life facts seem just a rational exercise.

Debbie, the bad problem here is that I have to pour all these energies in a job that doesn't reward me emotionally. Indeed, I am extremely successful, customers come in searching for me for difficult tasks. But that brings only money. And I can't buy feelgood packs with money. If this would not sustain my family... I would gladly leave and get something more meaningful for me.

And Kerry, your hug is most appreciated and gladly returned

Well, reading you posts and replying was the best part of the day. I can't thank you enough