@88Butterfly88.. It's pretty much common not to feel safe when you break the cycle. In my case, sometimes I do things in multiple of 5, let's say I'm scratching my ear.. I do it 5 or 10 or 15 times..(lightly though ). When I break this pattern, say do that 2 or 3 times, I feel like I am going to die soon or get a disease or something bad is going to happen.

I mentioned my condition to let u know that u aren't alone in this. There are others also facing this issues day in and out. Learn to let things go. I know it's an uphill battle, and each time you start from the beginning. Stay Healthy..