I can understand your dilemma Jamie. I prefer to look at the bible as a hardliners point of view. You see, God makes no mistakes, everything is for a purpose. If He made everyone in the world the same, it would be a pretty boring world. Sure I'm trans, but it also singles out those that judges, hate, discriminates....

We are all a tool for His hands and He loves us all. We are here to do His will...to live the life that He created for us. If I'm suppose to live in torture and agony in my faith, then I don't need to live at all.

I'm not saying kill yourself, but to find a loving relationship in your faith. Maybe your idea of a loving God isn't to loving??

I prefer to live a spiritual existence over a religeous one.