Hi Justanotherstar,

Thank you for sharing with us here. I agree with the Skeezyks, I would urge you to talk to someone in 3D life, even if it's your doctor, especially as it's affecting your sleep so much. That is a sign you might need to see a doctor, or at very least the college counsellor if there is one.
This kind of slide needs addressing before you get more desperate.

I'm very familiar with the feeling that life is fading until I feel it's not me living it. There is help available so you don't necessarily have to live this half a life nod deal with it on your own.

This kind of mental pain is very common even if people don't talk about it. There is no shame in it and asking for help is a sign of strength.

Be kind to yourself, I hope you find the support you need.