Hi again. After I asked her for an explanation to why she told me I was good looking she told me she felt it would help my self esteem. I asked her why she got me gifts and she told me that she thought it would be easier for me to open up to her if she showed she was there for me. She then asked me why I was asking these questions and I explained everything back to her. She told me although she is fond of me she does not have a crush on me. It turns out I remind her of her son who died in the army and that is why she is nice to me. She looked extremely sorry and told me that if i am uncomfortable I can see another therapist. I cant believe how wrong i was about the crush thing.

Overall I feel pretty bad and think that I will go ahead in seeing another therapist. Things feel awkward now that i made them that way. I feel so foolish to think someone actually would have had a crush on me. I Feel depressed now that the only person i thought liked me does not actually like me. On the bright side I guess the new therapist will be a lot less confusing and can focus on my actual problems rather than discussing unrelated things. I also think I'll get a male one next time to prevent this sort of confusion. Just shows we're all human, seems both me and my therapist made mistakes.