Your situation is somewhat like mine was. It eventually got better, but first I had to decide to leave him. A friend told me 'when it hurts more to stay than it does to leave, you will leave.' And I did. The truth is he will continue to do what he's doing as long as he can get away with it, he's not going to change. I don't know if that helps but it can get better. You need a break in order to continue functioning. Is it possible for you to get some kind of state aid temporarily until your kids get a little older maybe? So you don't have to keep working an impossible number of hours?