I worry that I was abused and that I have repressed the thoughts. My father is a transvestite (something I found out when I was growing up). He went out in public within our street showing the neighbor his dress. Sadly, this weird behavior makes me wonder if he abused me and that I repressed the thoughts. I don't feel comfortable when he stands close to me. And he constantly messed with himself (shuffling i think, not masturbating).

Then there is my mother who has strong personality disorders and has been emotionally abusive towards me.

I, myself, now have many issues as a young adult. Haven't formed any type of adult relationship and don't plan to. Find any type of relationship impossible to form including most friendships.

Maybe there was no sexual abuse. I could go on and explain my own thoughts, but they are a little disturbing to talk about and are connected with abuse. Please advise. Thanks