Lately I am feeling like every area in my life is just "dead end". I don't know if it's depression on my part that's making me feel that way.

At my job I feel like it's dead end because the people I work with are not as nice as they used to be. The turnover is high and lately I don't recognize the people that I see. The ones that have been around a while seem moody now. It's like they have changed. I used to love my job and looked forward to going to work each day. I still like my job, but I feel like it's not as nice as it used to be.

At where I go to church, I feel like I am not connecting very well there. After a service, I would consider having a good day if I could talk to two people briefly. I feel like the people there are into their cliques and the atmosphere feels like a country club more than a Godly place. The reasons I stay and tolerate it is because my only friend goes there. I'm afraid that if I were to go somewhere else, we could drift apart. Also I like the minister and the service format there is hard to find elsewhere. In the past I've done a lot of "church hunting" and found it to be a frustrating experience. I have some hopes that it could get better, but it hasn't.

At where I live, it's very hard to make friends. And it's very isolating. There are times when it's nice to be alone, but it seems like it's that way more than I want it to be. When I go to the pool area, I'm either alone (most times) or I would meet people that I absolutely have nothing in common with. I've thought about moving out, but so many people have been talking me out of it. Plus I have fears that I might regret moving since it could be a financial risk in doing so.

So, I wonder if I should just hanker down and change everything that I have going for me. Or should I change with the way I am as a person? I guess that the latter would be the easiest and best way. But I feel like I try the best I can and this is what I have to show for it. So, I don't know!