I've been on Lamictal for about two months now but I'm not sure that it's doing anything to help stabilize me. When my T asked me how I had been feeling, I didn't even know how to respond.
My sleep has been erratic- I'm either sleeping 3-4 hours or 10+ hours. When it comes to the rest, I can't even explain it exactly. My thoughts are constantly racing, I have a hard time concentrating, and I spend more time irritable than not. One second I'm planning out god knows what and then I don't even want to bother. Sometimes I'll feel great and then suddenly start crying because I don't know who I can trust, other times my thoughts will be racing about horrible things but at the same time I want to do something fun, and then other times I'll feel just okay. I've also been paranoid lately, which very much ties into not knowing who I can trust. My moods have always been weeks or months of either mania or depression and now, I just feel like I'm all over the place.
Since this is my first time trying meds, I'm not sure if this is normal. When I first started Lamictal, I was hypomanic then manic, but then that turned into whatever this is.

Did you experience this when you first tried meds? Is this my body and mind trying to stabilize? I just feel even more out of control now than I ever have while solely depressed or manic.