Hi there,

I feel sad these days. I'm out to several people, but I have the feeling that only a few of them would stay supportive if I'd go on T. or similar. The others feel more like "ooh genderqueer okay/thats nice/whats that/ - This changes NOTHING for me" .
But for me it changes A LOT!
I want to be able to ask my collegues to use my real pronouns, to use my own choosen name and to go to university with my beard and feel good about it. Maybe I am the problem and everyone would be fine, I'm just too anxious.

And so I'm in a wibbly-wobbly state where some people know, some don't and I feel like I am unable to be true to myself. Dysphoria sometimes is an asshole, too.

Sorry, just on my way to a meeting at work were I have to look out not to sit on a table with only other people percieved as women, so I don't have to hear the "oh and there is the womens table" "ah ladies, how are you" etc and feeling bad about it. Life is a parkour and sometimes I don't have enough spoons to deal with all the obstacles.
Sorry to vent on you