Hello thank you for clicking on my thread I'm sorry if it's too long and boring for you.. But if it's not please help me thank you
Right now I feel like nothing and my life is a complete waste. I'm extremely scared about the future. I'm 16 and I'm in 11th grade. Every day when I wake up the only things I look forward to are seeing my friends and family, eating, and sleeping. School is lonely for me. I cant tell if my friends actually like me or not. It seems like people want nothing to do with me. Also I've never had a boyfriend but I guess that's not really important My grades are horrible. There's no way I can go to college and even if I could, I'm terrible at school related stuff so I would probably hate it. I don't think I could get a job either. I'm not good at anything at all, I'm bad at talking to people, and I don't like doing anything. When I was younger I liked drawing but that's slowly going away. Also I know it sounds ridiculous but it was always my dream to be able to create some kind of comic or game that people really love and makes people feel something but I don't think I'll never be able to do it. I'll never be able to do anything or be anything. Especially when I see people like Hayao Miyazi or Toby Fox and I see how much people love them and love what they've done and I love them too it's just I know I'll never be like them. I want to be somebody special or important but I'm not. I'm just going to keep living quietly and I'll die quietly without doing anything at all..
Well anyway thank you for reading my nonsense. I'm not exactly sure how I wanted someone to help me but I'm just so lost. I feel like I have no future. Only more bad things can happen from here. I'm scared. I want to believe it when people say things will get better but I've been waiting for things to be better and trying to make them better my whole life and every day things get worse. Not just for me but I cause problems for my family too. Well if there's anything you can tell me at all I would appreciate it. thank you