Hi there.

You are being very very hard on yourself. I suggest you read this and apply it to what you've written: http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...bout-them.html

You can go to college, even if your grades are horrible. You don't even need to graduate high school (although you should work hard to graduate). With even a GED, you can enroll at a community college. This is what people should be doing anyway, because you can get your first 2 years done for a tiny fraction of the cost and it counts just the same. From there you can transfer to a university for your remaining 2 years.

I thought I was terrible at school as well, but when I got to college I realized I actually just didn't have any motivation during high school and my mental state was keeping me from doing well. Based on your post, I highly suspect the same is true for you. You don't even have to be smart to do well in college, you just have to do the work. You can certainly do that.

I felt exactly the same way for the longest time. I am terrible at talking to people and the only thing I ever liked doing was playing video games. Eventually I decided to go into IT, and I think that will be perfect for me. You don't need to absolutely love your job, I would say what's important is simply having a job that will allow you to do the things you want in your life outside of work. You have time to figure this out and you will.

Do you see a therapist? Talking about all this with a therapist could help you a ton. I realize the thought of doing that is intimidating, but it isn't as bad as it sounds.