Hi Will,
Thanks a lot. Sometimes it happens to me, too, I mean, thinking that it's all dead end.
I do not know in your case, but I think in mine, both, I and the world I inhabit have changed.
Regarding me, I have changed not only because of depression but also for aging. I am more critical and have lesser patience than before, just to tell something. And also
the world surrounding me has changed and sometimes to me seeing the "negative" changes of the world is easier than seeing its positive changes. I have a hard time adjusting with current ideals and ethics, for example.
When I was young, improving the World, dying for your ideas, being willing to donate your life for a cause were a big deal. People used to take care of their beloved ones that were aging and regarded those with authority. It was not a perfect world at all, there were too much injustice and violence, but somehow I knew how to survive and live in it. Now it is different. There are changes for the good (now we are in democracy, for example) but I sometimes struggle to appreciate that. I see that people are isolated and lack the solidarity we use to have and that affects me a lot