Hi, welldone on the 4 days! I got loads of expereince in going up walls, abstaining and etc, What i do is get an abstinence partner, warn her I'll need to bombard her with texts, every time I want to act out, I text her instead, evenif to say 11;;1£££ ****)++!`` I want to ac tout and commit to do that instead of act out for, say one weak and maybe ring every night just for 2 mins, check in you feelings, then after a week, you can decide again, do you want more sobriety, or do you want to go back, it really is a genuine decision for you to make.
Good luck, keep us posted how it goes. ps, my addiction wasnt to substances, something one doesnt really mention in polite company, so, well................
all the best