<font color="black"> Hi eskielover,

Thanks so much for sharing with me. Sometimes we can become so isolated due to our illness, and I really appreciate when others reach out to me. I don't feel as alone. And we can bolster each other up with ideas and acceptance. I hope you are feeling well today!

I think I understand about the "flu". That's something like me. I feel run-down, sick, tired, I can't seem to find the energy or motivation to take a shower or even just wash my hair in the sink. And I feel like it's a bug...that I must have caught something. But it's not a bug, huh? It's just our bodies doing battle with us again. Such a senseless battle.

My goodness, you've had 30 suicide attempts? It says amazing things about you that you are here to tell us that!!!!! You absolutely have an incredible core of strength to not have had a fatal attempt. But I feel for you. I wish I could swoop you away and take you to places that are new and exciting, and so you'd never have time to be overwhelmed by that suicidal mindset. I wish I knew how to help you. It is a blessing that you have developed ways to monitor yourself and know how to gauge what will de-stabilize you. How strong a person you are!!

Let us know how you are, okay? I have a lot of faith in your ability to achieve wonderful things in this world. You're my HERO!

Hugs,
Sandy


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