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Originally Posted by ScientiaOmnisEst
Maybe. I don't know. It sort of disappeared yesterday; it was weird. I've basically been normal since then. It almost feels like that whole incident didn't even happen but was some weird dream, though it obviously did.
It was certainly consuming in a way - I couldn't think, couldn't function, couldn't do anything. What I wanted, or thought I did, was a justification for living how I want, for taking life seriously, for doing anything. But if acting that way is wrong, I'd look ridiculous. If it's all for nothing, what business do I have caring about it so stupidly? If I'll just be working for nothing, why work at all? If my valuations are, by definition, false, and trying to say "they matter to me and that's all that matters" is self-delusion, what can I do that's valid?
I think something flipped in my mind to just stop caring.
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Nihilism as defined by the dictionary: a revolutionary doctrine that advocates destruction of the social system for its own sake.
This individual is abusing the language. Depression is not the desire to destroy society or one's self for it's own sake. Only a narcissist person who has no regards for life except their own would adhere to such an abhorrent philosophy. From my experiences people who suffer from depression either want to be unbound from it or understand it. It seems it is harder to loosen the chains then to understand and work within it.
As I said earlier; don't take just one person's opinion(including mine). Broaden your search and for God's sake please don't let this person bring you down. You have enough on your plate.
Regards, M Poirot
