I understand all about the trust issues. I still have a hard time with my T discussing some things, and it's been awhile. He doesn't seem to understand the down side of things, he is always so positive and upbeat that it drives me crazy. I think sometimes he isn't capable of knowing what depression and "bad thoughts" are, let alone experience them.

I wish you would believe how special you are, Fuzzy. I know it is difficult to believe something nice about oneself, but ALL the people here can't be wrong.