relationships suck. these things are hard to write. I'm a destructive writer. I just wrote an entire book. just to re read it, highlight the whole thing, and backspace. why would anyone else want to weigh in on my ridiculous relationship problems? my pointless *****ing about in laws and morel mushrooms and nasty home wrecking you know whats.....this is why I stay isolated. wondering why I opened myself up to this availability to express all my reservations. that's why I deleted facebook. questioning why I'm here. wondering when that after hours jam session is. maybe ill find some friends there. maybe people who share the same music taste. Music IS what feelings sound like, you know.