I'm still adjusting to clozaril (and a bunch more gabapentin). It is definitely helping and my frustration is just that my pdoc has 3 people on clozaril. It's not like most meds where she has seen hundreds of people on it and knows from experience what to do next. So we keep adjusting things.

But it is 10,000 times better than how I felt 3 months ago tonight when my pdoc called the hospital to tell the dr that the patient she'd been contacting them about needing treatment just kicked a dishwasher while screaming F@#$ when that patient never swears or gets violent and they said I could come immediately but I couldn't because I had taken meds already. So, so much better than that night.

Another 3 months and hopefully I'll be more like me again.