The good news: I met with her today and I like her and I was encouraged by what she had to say. She has me stopping the Vyvanse, lowering lamictal to 400MG, starting lithium in order to wean me off of the clozapine, and, once I've stopped the clozapine, she is going to wean me off of the Remeron and put me on a more activating anti depressant like Welbutrin. She is also going to eliminate the Abilify.

She was also surprised that my last dr started Clozapine when there are several other antipsychotics that he could have first tried, like Seraquil for instance.

The bad news: I called my insurance company for a reimbursement form thinking all along that this was out of pocket. It's not. It is just a nonparticipating provider which, under the particular contract we're under, is not covered.

So, I have to carry the $325 I spent for the initial appointment (actually, my mom paid for it and thank goodness she is not asking for it in return or my husband would flip his lid).

My mom said at first that she would pay this pdoc for visits for 6 months. When I told her my pdoc wants to see me every 2-3 weeks, I think it is more than she bargained for. She said we need to look through my new insurance's list of providers. So that is what I will do. I guess after everything I'm dealing with my husband, I feel even sadder and more discouraged than before. I could just cry my eyes out. Thank goodness I see my t tomorrow.