{{{{{{{{Carrie}}}}}}}}}}

I am sorry that you hurt so much. You were right before though - there is light inside you, but sometimes dark gets in too. The darkness isn't you though. But the thing is, cutting doesn't get rid of the darkness. Darkness is empty. The only way to get rid of emptiness is to fill it with something. Sometimes cutting feels like it does that, but it is an illusion. What you need to fill that space with is more light; more of the real you, who is light and good. And there is plenty of light in you if you can find it and let it expand and grow. It's just compressed by the darkness, and obscured so that it is hard for you to see it. Find the light. (since I'm into Dinotopian rules)