Morning couch! I've been awake for over 2 hours already, couldn't sleep, laid in bed doing some inner workings and had a big-big "awakening" moment that I can't wait to share with t. She had replied to one of my emails during my recent struggle with feeeelings for her that part of the work is knowing our own nature, and that sometimes we will suffer because that is 'our nature' something like that. Anyway that statement has been working on me ever since I read it. And I realized this morning that I want to say to her "I love you. And I'm not gonna fight it anymore. Cuz that's just who I am - a sensitive, emotional and loving person. And further, I'm so done with shaming myself for it. In fact, there's so much insensitivity and hatred in this world, that daggonit, I am NEEDED out there!!"

My inner light is burning brightly again and I see now that I have no business at all in trying to cover it up.

I wanted to share this here first because you guys have been so good to put up with my whining and struggling and rambling thoughts especially lately. I'm supposed to go see her tomorrow to pick up the super bill/receipt thing she made up for me so I can submit to insurance, and I filled out her intake paperwork again because I told her I wanted to because I wanted goals, so I'm giving that to her tomorrow too. And I plan to tell her this then. I know it's not a session or anything, but it will only take a moment to say.

Have a sparkly day everyone and hugs to those who want them.