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Originally Posted by scar12346
I am mad.
I go to my psychologist (new one that works in the psych ward) because of depression, I mention that I have some episodes where I am lost and I tell her that I think it's because of dissociation. She then continue with 2 sessions of how we reincarnated into D.'s body (the original) when she fell into clinical death. Okay fine maybe, maybe not. She then proceeds to tell me that if we wanted normal life we should leave.. Which have to be plain suicide because D. is dead. She begins to tell me that D. is still alive, even though by what Evee told me D. f..... died when she was 1. The psychologist then tells me that I am a liar because I didn't told her earlier, even though I learnt it after our first session.. I then start crying because I am so hurt from her telling me that I am a liar, which I am not, and Waidth takes control as a defence mechanism. We nearly kept him steady in place because he wanted to choke her. Carolinae then proceeds to take control because she is the calmest. She asks if we can leave that aside and work on my personal problems. We then do that for 10 minutes because that was the time left. I'm mad right now. I'm mad and upset maybe a bit triggered because I am starting to get my stress ticks. If I am jealous of one thing that is that you guys in the bigger, richer countries have amazing mental health systems and people that are trained. I hate England and Germany, nothing personal I just don't like it, but if I need to go there for my mental health so I can find someone who understands me I would move there. I would move anywhere if there is a person who can understand and help me, because in here, they tell you that you are crazy for things that are not. They imagine your problems without asking you. And I hate that.
Sorry for my rant I just needed to let it out because that will haunt me through that whole day.
On other news I am getting anti-psychotics tomorrow.. at least one thing will be fixed, hopefully.
-Thanks for reading, Scar
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I wonder about something... here in the USA with DID\OSDD no one dies. i wonder if because you perceive a part of your system has died (D) that this disqualifies having a dissociative disorder and what is getting you treated as psychosis in your location.
I can understand why she was discussing reincarnation if you told her D died. here in the USA when someone perceives a part of their self has died and others are taking over the body/ living inside the body of someone who has died is called reincarnation and a religious ritualistic practice which here in america disqualifies the diagnosis of DID, in other words a person here in america who says this would not get a dissociative disorder diagnosis, they would get diagnosed as psychotic or referred to a church to deal with their religious problem.
another thing that may be preventing your treatment provider (psychologist) from treating you in a way that you feel you should be is your statement of "some episodes of where I am lost" here in the USA this would point to psychosis not dissociation because with dissociative disorders reality testing remains intact and with psychosis a person loses their sense of reality (getting lost in their mind rather than switching into an alternate personality.)
my point is it might not be that america has better health care, it might just be the diagnostic criteria matching with the words you are using.
suggestion .. maybe you can find out what diagnostic manual your location uses for diagnosing mental disorders. maybe checking out that manual will help you to understand why your treatment providers think you have psychosis not a dissociative disorder.
another suggestion try the meds they want you to try. who knows it may help regardless of what your problems are labeled as.