I've been flying between exploding and despair so deep it's a chore to bother breathing. Overdue for an appointment. No money. But my "at work" faux-semi-normal façade (albeit only marginally effective at best as it is) is crumbling fast.

And laughing at dvds like an hour after smashing things(!) This is not typical!! This level of chaos is exhausting.

And apparently, freaking people out.