I don't want to live, I don't want to... You know....

I'm depressed as hell but functioning normally, but it's a battle, I fear I'm losing the fight. I don't remember what my hopes and expectations were, I look horrible, I look way older than I am. I'm a lonely person, the only reason I'm alive and want to stay alive is because I care about my parents, they brought me up, they took care of me for so long. I want to make them happy.

I'm angry, I'm frustrated, I'm sad. I have "friends", they casually make fun of me about my appearance. It pisses me off so much.

Life feels like purgatory to me. I have no one to comfort me, my mom isn't doing so well either and my whining and moaning depresses her even further.