thank you both!
I wish it was this easy with transition in germany, but you need a pychologist certificate that you lived at least 3 years as your own gender etc in germany before you can think of getting T (And even then you have to write a resume that reflect it and essays etc and of course they only recognize binary trans* people)

But mike_j you're right. Friends are only worth keeping if they are accepting you as who you are. I just don't always find the courage to be myself.

How do you do it? I mean, there are people who were easy and than there are places such at work that come very uneasy to me (excuse my english I went out for some drinks and..)