((((candybear)))) don't feel bad. it's great that you're doing ok. you are lucky. sure, i envy that. but, i'm glad and happy for you. i don't know what the condition that you have is, but i can understand how you feel. i'd probably feel the same way if i was in your shoes. i doubt i'm helpful in this and i hope someone else is more helpful than i am. i don't resent the fact that you're doing good with whatever dx that you have. i don't mind having you here in pc. i like having people who are doing better than i am here because they are helpful to me as well as those who are not. does this make sense to you? wishing you the best as always.